13 yrs later - WTH was I thinking?

Yesterday 9/7/11, was my first day since 1998.  I had a professor 13 yrs ago-that when I walked in his class, I cried.  Smh, I knew I was going to fail.  I have the same professor for the same class and this time, I didn't cry. I smiled!  I actually learned something. So very exciting.  The other class is new to me & today is Advanced Excel Spreadsheet. Yes, I am sleepy but this is all exciting still because I am tired and want to sleep so badly. 

Well, so far my professor is interesting. Let's wait till next week. 

My Wish List...

So, I wish for a lot of things; like: My daughter to be better than how she is now so that I don't have to worry as much. I wish for tougher skin so that I wouldn't care as much about what others think of me. Back to my daughter, I wish that she would finally wake up and smell the roses/coffee/smelly cat litter box or something as a realization that no one takes her seriously.  And that my words have come true. While all her "school friends" have gone to prom, graduated, and is preparing for college--she is still in high school needing to return in september and that road she is on is clearly not the right one and she needs to try another road.  How about if she realizes that I am her only mom and that I cannot be replaced.  Hey,, I need MTV to step-in and ship her to some third-world country to get an Extreme Eye Opener on how blessed she truly is and how rich she is.  She is a bratty girl with no clue as to whats truly out there.  I am ready to runaway. I want my own place minus her [& my brother]  I love family [what little I have] and my friends. But I wish for peace & quiet and independence. My own place my way and no outside interference.  Please.... Oh Please.  I need a carribean vacation immediately.  SMH,,,,

My cellphone

So I am trying my best to post some pics of my work that are on my cell phone...Smh,  Calgon take me away from my broke down smart phone... So truly not worth it.

It's about time

So, today my daughter rented "For Colored Girls"... I was not prepared for some of the scenes & my tears flowed.  Shoot I still want to cry.  Very Deep movie.
Now for me & this blog.  I couldn't help myself,,, I have so much to say and I don't always want to talk with my friends. I just want to vent to the universe without a care.  I am a knitter who knows how to crochet.  I am a writer who is unpublished and is scared of success.  A product of my environment, my childhood, my damaged up bringing for the first 12 1/2 yrs of my life. Along the way I was taken from my environment and placed in another; they say the grass is not always green on the other side.... I am here to say it was.  It took a while for me to figure it out but when I did - there was no going back.

As it comes to me, I will share through my words & pics.